My first blog

Er.... i m reall dont know what should i stard ...... This is my first time to do blog, I think it gonna help me.... I am an emo person so it may good for me if i can shout everything here haha ....
Some one told me ... i am not strong enough to hold myself.... I am too weak to felt in love someone..... all is my weakness and it's unacceptable ...... I dont know how can i explain..... i am not easy felt in love someone ......i used to love someone for quite long time .... but i am dont show that i like or love him ...... but what someone said ... I am not strong enough to hold my self haha may be i must agree with this point.I know my self ... and i can said that i am a royal ... i am a choosy person ..... but if i decide to love someone or choose some one ....... i will love him no metter how bad he is .I have too many friend, but in some time i feel so lonely .... even i have million of people around me but deep inside my heart still lonely ..... have u ever feel that ?O God..... i never play wit love ... but why they all just play wit me...... God it really hurt and painfull ..... i cant accept this hurt anymore ..... when i will find someone who really care me .........